More With Mashonda.. VIBE Interview Part 2

 

Mashonda dished a whole lot of info about this whole Swizz/Mashonda/Alicia situation in the first part of her interview with VIBE.com, but it was nothing compared to the second part of the interview.  Check out some more excerpts below.

That’s commendable to say. But what about that Twitter message you sent her?

I did not expect that letter to do what it did, I swear. I was in a state of insanity when I wrote that letter. I sat on the bed and I was like, ‘I can't take this shit anymore’ and lost my mind. I sat and wrote it all out on paper first, and then I tweeted it. The next morning it was on every blog and I was like ‘Ah! Oh my God, what the fuck did I do?!’ It was not intended to be that. And I kind of felt bad.

You’ve mentioned in the past that Swizz repeatedly denied having an affair with Alicia. Did he ever fully come out and admit to it?
My husband admitted to having his affair on Mothers Day 2008, six months after I found out. I didn't sleep for a whole year. I had to take pills to sleep because I'd wake up in the middle of the night crying. I couldn't even look at my son some days because I didn't have the strength and I never wanted him to feel my bad energy. It was a battle. They are just now going public, but this has been going on for a very long time. I refused to really break it down for people to understand because there was no way I could go around not making [Swizz and Alicia] look extra crazy and I didn't want to put that out there for my son. I didn't want him to see his father as a monster. But the shit is deep.

You can read the rest of part 2 here.

BTW.. Mashonda mentioned in the interview that she didn't want to put all their business out but that if telling her story would help other women she was all for it.  It's crazy she said that because one of my readers contacted me yesterday after I posted the first part of the interview and told me how much she appreciated me posting the story and the link.  She said it really helped her with something she is currently going through.  Hell, I can't say that I really blame Mashonda for speaking on what happened.  If Swizz and Alicia can live their lives and speak about their relationship and how they found love, Mashonda should be able to speak on what she went through as well.

Source VIBE.com

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Mashonda Is Over It... She Tells VIBE About Her First "Talk" With Alicia

Well, I knew it wouldn't be long before we heard something from Ms. Mashonda (Swizz Beatz now ex-wife).  Mashonda talked to VIBE.com about moving on after her divorce, her feelings on Swizz and Alicia, her first sit down with Alicia and the new man in her life.  Check out some of the excerpts from the interview below.


I know it was very important for you to sit down with Alicia if she was going to be around your son. Safe to assume that happened?
When I wrote her that Twitter letter everybody wanted to say things like ‘Oh, what do you need to meet her for? It's not her problem, it's Swizz's." I'm like, ‘You have a kid, go through what I went through and then talk to me.’ I'm not having my son around anybody I don't know. I don't give a shit who you are and how much money you have and what management he's going to be under when he visits you. I need to see you and I need you to see how serious I am about him. And that's what happened. We had to sit down, and I told her how I felt. I didn't mention anything else, it was all about my son and it was fine after that. I'm not going sit and talk to [them] about what happened between the three of us. This is about my son.

Have you received an apology from either one of them yet?
Nope.

Surprising?
No, because I honestly feel like they think they didn't do anything wrong. I don't care about their apology. As long as he’s a great dad to my son and she's a good step-mom, they don't have to worry about apologizing because they will never understand or care about the pain I went through. That was a big thing at first, I felt like nobody was respecting me. He's not respecting me, she's not respecting me. [But] then I had to say, ‘Fuck my ego, because this can't be an ego thing. If it is I'm going to fall down and die.’ People feel that they are so happy and they are so in love, but what really happens is that real love does not come from a foundation when you hurt somebody else. Love does not happen like this. Love doesn’t involve hurt, lies, or destructing anybody else's soul.

If real love isn’t born from infidelity, are you saying it wouldn’t shock you if their soon-to-be marriage ended in divorce?
I don't think about it, it's not my concern. I don't think about them anymore. If there was no little boy involved in this, I would’ve probably moved to another country by now. I've thought about going to live in Europe, but I can't because his dad is here. I don't like confusion, I don't like drama, I don't like none of that stuff. I would have left before the divorce was even final.

If you were generously invited, would you attend their wedding?
No. Not out of malice, but because weddings are sacred. It's just not my place. The only reason I went to his birthday party was because he invited me and I did that for myself. I needed to see them together for it to transfer. And I was like ‘Wow, this is real.’ We were still totally married…We had a divorce that was nowhere near final, but I just needed to see them in action for it to be real to me, and it was definitely real. You have all these different types of steps that you have to set up for yourself until you get to that place where you are free. And I will tell you, after I got divorced maybe three weeks later I woke up and felt a weight removed. It was the first time I’d ever felt mentally free. And I sent him an email wishing him all the best in the world.
 
Does it hurt listening to her now? Were you an Alicia Keys fan?
I believed her before.
 
 
Wow, BURN!!! LOL, she went in on them real slick like.  Anywho, go over to VIBE.com and read the rest of the interview.. It's worth the read!

 BTW, this is Mashonda with her new boo, Emmy Award winning producer Michael Honablue.

 
Source: Vibe.com

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Alicia Keys Confirms Pregnancy

Alicia Keys and Swizz have finally confirmed what everybody has pretty much known for a minute, they are expecting their first child together. The couple is also set to be married later on this year in a private ceremony. Wow, I bet Mashonda is somewhere heated.



I'm not sure if I would have confirmed anything if I were them. I probably would've pulled a J.Hud and just started poking out and still not said anything LOL. I'll keep you guys posted with pics.


Via The Associated Press

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Alicia Keys Does Madison Square Gardens.. Brings Out The Carter's & Swizz Beats

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They went CRAZY when Bey came out there. Alicia had to bring it in order to hold her own next to that one, they looked good tho.

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