.: the book of life

Sooooooooo.. everybody has their own beliefs about their creator, morals, responsibilities and just LIFE in general. Personally, I believe that every person's life story is already written. Let me explain... For instance, you know that saying "when it's your time to go, it's your time"... Well, I totally believe in that, if you're supposed to leave this earth at 13 years old, you will. BUT, I believe that the way people live their lives determines HOW they leave. Kinda like 2 roads that lead to the same destination. Anywho, I was just sitting up thinking, LIFE IS CONFUSING AS ALL HELL!!

What I've found from my own personal experiences is that sometimes we know what is right from wrong, but we just DON'T KNOW HOW TO DO WHATS RIGHT! Life can bring about so many different situations and sometimes you don't know which way is right and which is left. Like I said, I believe my story is already written, but by me not knowing what life is to bring I have no idea of what I need to do or what I need to steer away from. I swear this would be SO MUCH EASIER if my GOD would send me a copy of MY STORY ROFL.. Cuz there were times that I was completely lost on so many things! TRUE, like I said I know right from wrong, but I'm talking about other situations. You know the ones where you just really don't know WTF to do. For instance, meeting new men. OMG, before I got with my guy that was crazy to me. I would try to take lessons that I learned in past relationships and apply them to new ones, BUT, they say you shouldn't "bring old baggage to new relationships".. I MEAN WTF MAN!! LOL.. But I guess a lesson isn't really considered baggage tho huh? Well, when I would meet a new guy I would find myself thinking "is this who GOD has sent for me".. Mainly b/c I feel like this, I'm a grown and I really don't have the time and/or patience to deal with somebody that really doesn't want what I want, PERIOD! Making new friends to chill with is cool, but PLEASE let it be known up FRONT if that's all you're looking for. Believe me, that'll keep down a lot of confusion. Half of the time they'll be no love lost if you are truthful about just wanting a friendship. However, once you've started lying and wasting peoples time, THAT could create a huge problem, cuz guess what... time waits for NO ONE, ya digg!

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Another thing, with this world looking more and more like "hell on earth" everyday, I'm honestly scared. Now, I'm not the type that is going to let the ways of the world keep me cooped up in the house, but the fact of the matter is FOLKS ARE CRAZY AS HELL. Men/b***h ni**as are rapping babies and putting women on b-b-q grills, women/gutta butt trolips are microwaving babies (I know y'all remember hearing about that), this ish is scary. Its just so many things going through my mind right now, I could be here all day typing lol. One more thing before I go. Am I the only one that dislikes the phrase "failure is not an option?" It's not so much that I don't like it, it's just that I think it's incomplete. The phrase should be "failure is not an option, but it is sometimes a reality." No matter how much we may want things and actually work towards achieving certain goals, the reality is that everything doesn't always happen the way we want. I just felt like mentioning that because a couple of weeks ago I was reading an article about a teen aged girl (I think she was 15) that committed suicide. She was such a cute girl and as I looked at her pictures I wondered what could have been so bad that she felt she couldn't go on.

I'll end with this....Lord KNOWS I wish I could rip out some of the past pages in my "book of life", but I can't. Everything that we go through in life makes us who we are. Regardless of what this crazy world brings us in life, we have to realize that life in itself is a blessing. No matter what I go through during the day, EVERY night before I go to sleep I thank my GOD for life. I know that through it all I'm extremely blessed :). Alrighty, ennough of my ramblings... What are y'alls thoughts on the good ole' "book of life."

"Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.” ~Maria Robinson

Meeting adjourned.....